"It's brilliant, being depressed; you can behave as badly as you like. " -- Nick Hornby

I've had a lot of time to think lately, what with being unemployed and all. And lately I'm kind wondering if this welding career is really right for me. Ok, so it's not much of a career yet and I've only had one welding job with only limited success so giving up this early might not be considered wise.
But the thing is my brother just graduated for college and it's made me realize two things.
The first thing is that fact that I have seemingly over night gotten old and have wasted so much of my life and am really behind the 8 ball because of the countless mistakes I've made. The second is that I am the only one of my siblings (excluding the youngest, Maria, who has Down's Syndrome) who won't have a college degree. Sure, as a welder I won't really need one unless I teach it professionally (and I'm not sure o I'll even need one for that).
I don't know what I'm really trying to say. I guess my point is that I've been thinking about my life alot and feel like I have missed out.

Mark

I picked up my new glasses yesterday. I'll post a pic soon.
But I may go and exchange them or something because they may be giving me a headache. I went back to where I got them (Sears cuz they were the cheapest) and told they lady to adjust the fit a little because they felt tight. I also had her check that they put the right prescription lenses in. She adjusted them and told me to wear them for a couple days to see if my prescription needs to be re-examined.
But on the other hand I do get a lot of headaches especially around this time of year from all the allergies and shit.
But I really think  think it's the new lenses, they screwed them up or something

Mark

Ok, Lately I have been kind of an emotional mess. Tuesday night I couldn't sleep and was up all night and ended up crying my eyes out.
Wednesday, I started out the day feeling depressed then felt really good then I started to feel really lonely.
Last night I listened to Jack Johnson's 2003 album "On and On". Man, I forgot how great that album is. I mean when your feeling down and just want to listen to some sad slow music while you mope, you really can't beat "On and On".
Today, I'm feeling pretty good. But I have no energy. It feels kind of like a Monday to me.

Anyways, total subject change.  Sunday is Mother's Day. May 15 is my parents 28^th  wedding anniversary and May 17  is my mom's birthday. I wonder if Hallmark makes a card that covers all three. You know like "Happy Mother's Anniversary Birthday Day" card. That would be awesome. But, of course, no one but me is really that cheap and lazy so I may have to figure something out so that I don't look like a forgetful, unloving son. Plus my mom is the most loving, forgiving ,and all around best mother a guy like me could ask for, she deserves all of it and more.
Anyone have any god ideas for mothers day and all that?

Mark

[update: BTW I just changed my settings so that non-Mindsayers can read this blog. It's been so long that I think the people (more specifically, person) I was trying to keep from reading this got the hint. However, i will still be making about a quarter of my entries "friends only". And if I notice people that I don't want reading this again I may change it back. Just thought I give you all the 411]

Friday night had a little drama for the fam. My Uncle Ray had a heart attack and it didn't look good 'til early Saturday. He had heart surgery on Sunday and is back at home recovering. I'm probably gonna head over there in a little bit to see how he's doing.
I feel kind of guilty because when my father called me to tell me about it I was concerned but not really surprised. I've seen the guy eat bad for years and known he's had high blood pressure so my first reaction was something more like "OK, I saw that coming that's what he get for eating that way" is that wrong of me to think that way? I mean just last week I was him eat three pork chops in one sitting, so it wasn't a shock.The guys 60 so it isn't that uncommon for guys his age to have them .
Also, I didn't visit him in the hospital because I really don't like them ("them" being the hospitals not my family) . So, yeah I'm kind of a shitty nephew.

I broke my glasses today. I dropped them and the ear piece thingy broke off. I took them into get fixed and was told it couldn't be done.
So, now I've got them taped up all dorky like 'til Monday when I can get my eyes checked and get new ones.
Which sucks because I really don't wanna spend the money and because I'm going to Detroit on Saturday for my brother's Graduation. I'll be looking all nerdy and stuff. oh well I usually look nerdy anyways so a little more nerdiness won't hurt. And besides I'd rather look kind of dorky then not be able to see.
Anyways, I've decided I'm gonna go for a little different but I don't know what that style will be exactly.

Mark

[Update: It turns out I won't be going to Detroit because I have to watch the shoe store that day and I also won't be able to get a ride up there so I rescheduled and will be geting my glasses sooner then I thought]