I didn't sleep again last night. i went to bed aroung 12:30 or 1. i just lay in bed for a while. before long i start playing games on my cell phone (Monopoly). before i knew it it was quarter to Five. so i try to force myself to sleep. before long my neighbor's truck backing out of the driveway wakes me. i was only out for like fifteen minutes. i am getting really fucking sick of this insomnia. it makes it so i always have a headache. i am going to try to cut back on my coffee intake in the afternoons to see if that helps. 

but as i was laying there i thought maybe i would like to be some where else. but then i thought where would i go? it think it was just one of those desperate longing thoughts we all have when we are bore out of our minds and wish we weren't.

on the up side today is payday. it will solve my not haveing any money problem. but, unfortunately, i won't have it very long. i have to pay my Verizon bill, buy groceries, and get my hair cut. Man this is kinda sucky. it all seems like some fucked up joke where we are given money then some one yanks it out of our hands and laughs at us. does anybody else feel like that sometimes?

I don't have any plans for this weekend. that is probably one of the bigger things i miss about Coral, being able to spend our weekend together. 

wow, this entry has been kind of a downer.