Ok I've posted two not so serious entries today so this one is going to be personal.

As I already have said, Coral and I have become friends. But it's weird for me 'cause the longer we talk the more I want her. The more I want to say the "L" word.

We talk like we used to when we were together. Except without the typical couple/relationship stuff.

But it gets even harder from there. We have talked on the phone almost everyday this week. And after each phone call I end up having a dream about her. No, not a wet dream, but like a dream that is so realistic that wake up not sure if it had really happened or not.

Here's what I am talking about:

Dream one: In this dream Coral and I are on the phone. We are talking and I excuse myself and get up to get a drink or to use the bathroom. When I get back the first thing out of my mouth is "I Love you". Coral is shocked and calls me out on it. I play it off like I have no idea what she is talking about. We finish our conversation and I start to cry. Then I wake up and cry for real.

Dream two: Again we are talking on the phone. And then for some reason the conversation turns dirty. We talk about being friends with benefits, or fuck buddies.  The next thing I know I am in G.R. and I can't find her dorm. I ask people where she lives but know one know who she is.

Dream three: This dream is the worst. She is at my place and we are cuddleing and kissing (no, this is not a dirty dream don't worry). Then she  and I ask each other if we are getting back together at the same time. I wake up before we can answer.

What the heck does this all mean? Other then the obvious that I haven't gotten over her.

If this keeps up I think I will have to say that I can'ty have a friendship with Coral at least not until I can get over her or fall out of love with her. Is it even possible to fall out of love with someone?

Anyway...

Thanks for Reading,

Mark M.