"It's brilliant, being depressed; you can behave as badly as you like. " -- Nick Hornby

I'm a little sad today. This morning I drove my Mom's dog, Charlie, to the Humane Society to be put to sleep. He Has been very sick for a couple of weeks now. the Vet saiud it was some sort of heart problem. He lost a ton of weight, couldn't eat, could barely walk, was weezing, and looked so bad. my folks can't afford to  pay to get him back to 100% (man i wish we were rich, damn the man). We've only had him about 9 years so he wasn't that old.
My Mom walked out to the car with me and Charlie. she gave him his good byes and  a couple big hugs, as I closed the door she was almost  in tears. he was such a good friend to her and the rest of the family.
i got lost in the way so charlie and i drove around for a half hour. when i got there he was so happy to be out of the car  which made me feel even worse. i took him in and said my good byes. Charlie wouldn't go with the lady so i walked him into the kennel and said the final good bye. even i had to fight back the water works.
Carlie was the best dog and he will be missed.
God Bless You Charlie. We will Miss You.
My Mom was feeling sad and lonely so i got us lunch from wendy's and we had lunch together. she says they might get another dog in the fall if my mom back is all heeled. but it still won't replace Charlie.
Even worse is it hasn't really hit my little sister Maria yet (not that it matters, but, she's downs syndrome). She was the reason we got Charlie in the first place and they were best Friends. Charlie protected her like she was  his little sister. when it hits her she is going to be the saddest girl in the world.

Sorry if i just made you cry.

Thanks for reading,
Mark