"It's brilliant, being depressed; you can behave as badly as you like. " -- Nick Hornby

why is it that whenever i sleep in all day i always feel the most tired? this morning i just staid in bed untill like one in the afternoon. i only got out of bed to take a shower and get ready for work. by all reasoning sleeping in should mean i got all the sleep i needed but instead i have had no energy. i got out of work like a half hour ago. i had no energy i couldn't concentrate on a thing, i had trouble remembering things that i have done a thousand times. what gives?
any way. things in my head are driving me crazy. what things? well the same thing that has been driving me crazy for about two months now: Coral. Coral and I were talking alot and being pretty good friends. then Coral took a summer job as a camp counciler (I know, I know myn spelling sucks)  like an hour and a half away. we haven't been able to talk in about two or three weeks. it's crazy because i can't stop thinking about her, i can't stop wanting to talk to her. i am losing it! we broke up like two months ago and i still am finding myself thinking of her as my girlfriend. this is so crazy. am I still in love? i think so. i really wish i could just wipe my feeling for her away so that we can be good friends. one way i could quicken the pace in which i get over her is to find someone else. but i don't think i am emotionally ready for dating anyone right now and i am such an awkward geek around women that i give up way to quickly (before Coral and I started dating i was convinced that i would never date her). why do our hearts mess with us so much?
any way, another subject. My uncle and I are almost done with the bathroom at the house. that means that the house is almost ready to go on the market. all we have left ot do is go through and throw out the rest of the crap (my grandmother was kind of a pack-rat) and give the house one more good cleaning and it is ready. this is good because i can use the money (the profit form the sale of the house goes to us Grandchildren, so i will get 1-seventh of the money).
any way i have been rambleing for way to long,
Thanks for reading
Mark M