"It's brilliant, being depressed; you can behave as badly as you like. " -- Nick Hornby

Last night was another insomnia night. i stayed up watching tv all night i haven't been to bed yet (on my fifth cup of coffee).
Last night Conan O'Brien had a singer by the name of Regina Spektor on. I had never heard of her before. Conan said she was from New York. The song she sang was so beautiful i had to literally stop everything to watch. and by the end i was in awe of it's beauty. I am man enough to admit it this sappy love song of heartbreak made me cry. I had to google her and find out more. i found her website and her MySpace (google her for yourself she's worth checking out). I want to know every thing about her. I think this one song has made me a fan. she played it by herself on the piano. I found the lyrics and here they are:

Fidelity

I never loved nobody fully
Always on foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my  heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never  met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Supposed we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love song just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of couse its gonna get better
Gonna get Better
Better better better better
better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart
Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart

This song was so hauntingly beautiful. and once again i have another song that makes me cry. listening to this i thought of Coral. maybe it was the thought of her that made me cry.